Litost.

I have heard it before. I've actually written it down. Now it's being thrown in my face because I clearly cannot take 1 sign, but instead I need multiple signs. Ugh Sometimes life sucks, but most of the time I love life. I feel like the moments that suck are the loudest though, at least to me. A little over a month ago I had written down something I felt God was telling me that I needed to do because it was kind of holding me back from giving my entire life to Him. There was this tiny little piece of my heart that I wasn't ready to let go of because I think I had this hope in the back of my mind/heart that if I hold on long enough and be patient that this person will be in my life forever. He had told me I need to let go or else I won't be able to move forward in my life and relationships/friendships. I'm scared to let go of this piece of my heart because I don't want to lose this person, because they're extremely important to me. I've been holding on to someone hoping that they were meant to be in my life to the end, but I received the loudest and final sign I needed earlier tonight. I got to tell you, it's a great feeling to know that God's plans always are for the better of our lives (Romans 8:28), but I swear this feeling of letting go of this person is something I've never wanted to do nor thought I would have to do when they first came in to my life. It's a relief, but yet it hurts so bad. Letting go is not easy whatsoever. I thought God would change His mind, maybe, and that's why I ignored the first sign. lol I know, you're probably thinking "Ignoring God? What were you thinking, Sam!?" Haha I don't recommend it at all. I realize that this isn't the end of the world, nor is it the last time I will have someone that special in my life. God most definitely has a marvelous, mysterious, and exciting plan for my life and I am sooooo excited for it even though I may be feeling sad right now. He's revealed to me a lot of things about myself these past 2 months and also about what He has planned for me. It is so comforting to know that what has or has not happened  yet is all for the purpose of my future and His Will that is to be done through me. (2 Peter 1:3) God won't supply all of my wants, but I know that He will surely change my wants and supply my needs, better than I could have imagined.

Fulfillment for a Christian woman begins with the Lordship of 

Christ in every area of her life. 

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