The tree it up and it's been a year almost since we moved in to our new house and yet I still feel like I'm not completely at home. Yes, I love being here and I'm very glad God had this in store for us but I miss my home...the one in Lima. I mean, how couldn't I? I had lived in the same house for my entire life. That house built me. There's so many memories there that I'll never forget. But it's time to move on. Change is inevitable and sometimes it takes longer than expected or wanted to accept it. A lot has changed in my life in the past 2 years. Many of the people I called my friends I no longer talk to...my brother's life was turned upside down in the last 2 weeks...haven't seen my grandparents in over a year or more...I moved back home...I go to a crappy community college...so many things have changed. Although, these sound sad or upsetting, there are things that have changed for the better. I've grown up a lot...God has changed my heart and is continuing to do so each and every day...I've made a few friends and keep in contact with the ones from high school that truly care...grown closer to my family...been able to witness to others...have so many more opportunities in this big city of Toledo than I did in Lima. There's many things that are wonderful changes but yet still it's hard at times. I never knew, until I moved away from what I've known my entire life, that making friends would be so difficult. I'm such an outgoing person and love to be around people but I find it hard to make friends with people like I did when I was in middle school and such. It was so much easier back then and now it's kind of like you're here to fend for yourself and you've got to make it happen. That's not the case. Putting your fears, wants and desires, and hurts in the hands of the Lord Almighty is the key. Yes, I found it extremely difficult to get know people once I moved especially since I lived at home, but the Lord had his plan ready and waiting for me. He placed a few people in my life that have strengthened me, grown me, and challenged me. I'm grateful for those people and I'm excited to be used by God for the soul purpose of glorifying His Kingdom. Yes, it's been almost a year but I'm beginning to feel more at home than I could have ever imagined. I'm beginning to love it up here and it's given me the needed time to be molded into the woman God planned. Change is hard, inevitable, and scary but during those times we must rely upon the Lord for our strength because He will give us exactly what we need. He knows when and where and how to present what is needed in our lives, so just give in to Him instead of giving into what is now and at present.
Happy Thanksgiving week, people! Eat and be merry! And watch out for the crazies (aka me) on Black Friday! :)
Peace and Blessings!